How About We Exchange Shadow

How about we exchange shadow?

Maybe then, for once, you will

hear what I hear, you will see what

I see & go through what I went through.

Maybe then, for once, you will understand.

You know I am strong but sometimes

the shadow is stronger, fiercer,

and more merciless.

You know I am soft but sometimes

the shadow is softer, lighter, and happier.

The shadow is sometimes, moodier.

But if you love her; you love me then.

If you cherish her; you cherish me then.

So if we do exchange shadow,

what will you do then?

Will you nurture, will you love,

will you adore and will you stay?

Ananda Khaira Azizah,

Pekanbaru, March 25th 2026.

Written at 12am on a Wednesday.

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