The Little Women

Being remembered is something; something straight out of nothing. You don’t have to do, You don’t need to achieve, You only just have to be. To be you, doing or not doing. To be you, achieve or not achieving, To be you, present; not presenting. When performing gets tiring, that’s  the sign of you drowning. And then you cried; that’s the sign of you breaking. So tell me, tell me who are you when you’re not performing? Are you sad, are you happy, Do you angst, do you not angst? Will you catch you, when you fall? Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, May 2nd 2026. Written at 11am on a Saturday.

Go ahead, love.   Go ahead and find yourself, Go ahead and find your faith, Go ahead and find your purpose. Go ahead and create. Create  a world within this world  that is kind, tender, and brave. Create a world that is loved. Loved enough to believe in themselves, to believe in others, to believe in the kindness of the wind and the bravery of the fallen tree. A world that is brave enough to dare, to dream, and to be. And then trust me, love. When you do, you will be forever free. Ananda Khaira Azizah,  Pekanbaru, April 19th 2026. Written at 4pm on a Sunday.

But now, baby, Now she can breathe life  as much as it breathes life into her. With sparkle and passion and care, She lives her life slowly and gratefully Alongside her two children by her side. Guiding them as they guide her, Loving them as they love her abundantly, fiercely, and lovingly. A warm hearted exchange of affection between the most warm hearted people in this wide, wild world; A mother and her children. You can find that love in the middle of the night (For several times a night), In the middle of meltdowns, In the middle of their downtimes & literally everywhere, every time. You can find that affection anytime. So cheers to all mothers in the world, cheers to all mothers of the world. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, April 22nd 2026. Written at 4am on a Wednesday.

For the life that would’ve been lived over and over again Will you do it differently? Will you do today differently than yesterday; or you like it so much you will do exactly the same? The exact same thing in the exact same place, on the exact same time with the exact same people? Only the result would have been the same too, then. So if you get to do life differently, Will you do it or will you not? What will you do if you get a fresh new start, every brand new day? Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, April 9th 2026. Written at 7am on a Thursday.

How about we exchange shadow? Maybe then, for once, you will hear what I hear, you will see what I see & go through what I went through. Maybe then, for once, you will understand. You know I am strong but sometimes the shadow is stronger, fiercer, and more merciless. You know I am soft but sometimes the shadow is softer, lighter, and happier. The shadow is sometimes, moodier. But if you love her; you love me then. If you cherish her; you cherish me then. So if we do exchange shadow, what will you do then? Will you nurture, will you love, will you adore and will you stay? Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, March 25th 2026. Written at 12am on a Wednesday.

Where is she In the history of the world? Does she exist somewhere, anywhere? Oh but she is, darling. She exist in the pages of the books she read, In the lyrics of the songs she sang, and in the structure of the piece she wrote. It might not seem like much; She might not seem like much but she is there, present like never before. Her mind wanders but it also stays,  Her day slows but it also sped up. The little boy that she used to hug? She just couldn’t believe that it is him that hug her now. He kisses her now & tell  her stories &  sing her a song. Really amazing how fast time flies. So she sat there, building her confidence, building her confidant(s), one little presence at one time. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, March 13th 2026. Written at 7am on a Friday.