People’s Constitution of Selves

So I listened Sara Bareilles “She Used To Be Mine” repeatedly this morning (she’s such a great singer!) but here’s the interesting part: I’m drawn to her chorus, yet the rest of the song doesn’t resonate with me as much.

I can relate very much with “She’s imperfect but she tries etc.” but the part where she talked about the unplanned pregnancy is hard to relate to because my pregnancy is very much different, you know? Mine is a very expecting & joyful one.

Then it dawned on me how our experiences can really altered how we see the world. Like my husband will never understand the hard story of my family dynamics because he never went through the same experiences as I do. No matter how hard I try to explain it to him.

Our story only resonates to those with similar experiences as we do.

That’s why one whole song listened by millions of people in the world translates into different meanings to each and every one of them.

I think what I want to tell you here is that we shall not be too quick to judge others because they probably went through something that we don’t. Some experiences shaped them the way they are then dictate their whole constitution of selves.

So perhaps we can always be agree to disagree, for the sake of a softer world.

Ananda Khaira Azizah,

Pekanbaru, November 4th 2025.

Written on 9am on a Tuesday.

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