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Easier

B : Does it ever get easier?

A : What is?

B : Losing someone.


A : Actually, no it’s not. I still see every bits 

of him here and there, his favorite food & all. 

Even though it’s already been a year.


B : Did you get stronger then?


A : No I’m not. I’m just trying to live in a world without him, you know. And the world seems scary, and wobbly. It crumbles down the

moment my rock’s gone.


B : What are you gonna do, then?


A : Nothing. I’m just gonna honour him in my memory and keep him alive in my story 

as my dear love, my one and only.


He never one to say much but he said it so loudly through his actions, gestures, the smile, hugs and everything. 


All he ever wanted was for me to be happy.


Ananda Khaira Azizah,

Pekanbaru, 14 Juli 2024.

Hari Minggu, pukul 1 malam.



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