By the time I Accept Myself As Me

I am freed by the time I fell in love with myself,

So much and always will be.

I am freed by the time I need to impressed no one,

For the only one I need to impressed is me.

I am freed by the time I realized

that I do not have to proof myself to others,

I only need to proof myself to me.

I am freed by the time I realized I am not accountable of their expectations,

For the only expectations I'm accountable for ;

The only expectations I need and have to manage is mine.

I am freed by the time I realized that my competitor is not and never them.

For my only and forever competitor is me and myself only.

I am freed by the time I realized

that I have no need to defeat them.

For the only one I need to defeat is the "yesterday" me.

I am freed by the time I realized

that I have the capabilities to achieve my goals,

For my goal is to become the "better" me than I was.

I am freed,

by the time

I accept myself as me.

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