Fear Emergency Response

Hello, this is your fear talking.

I need you to notice that you’re now precipitating harder, your heart is beating faster, your hand starts to tremble, your whole body shakes and you felt chill slowly going up to your spine.

You can feel your ear starts to deafened you, you got goosebumps all over your body and you can feel your bile moving up your throat real quick that throwing up is definitely in your near agenda.

And all that is fine.

You’re completely okay.

All those are our body normal responses

during fear and you’re doing just fine,

little darling, you’re doing just fine.

Now I need you to walk through your fear with me, I need you to notice your surroundings.

I need you to focus on the outside of yourself.

Please close your eyes, take 3 deep breaths and listen, what did you hear? Describe it to me in details.

Now please open your eyes and see, what did you saw? Describe it in details, with colors attached too.

Now focus on the temperature of your surroundings, what did you feel?

Now after all that, how do you feel?

Do you feel better?

If you haven’t, repeat step 1-3 again as much as you need

I know that you’ll feel better eventually, you always will. Because you’ve been through this before and you conquer it.

You sensed your fear,

you walked through it,

you conquered it.

You beat it.

You can do it.

I’ll always be here, sending you my utmost prayers.

Ananda Khaira Azizah,

Medan, 16 Mei 2022.

7am.

(Inspired by my diving instructor, @fahmi.muliazir, someone whom I’m forever grateful for changing my view about learning, who’s great success in making studying fun again)

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