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Even For Me

Loving me is never easy.

For my parent, 
My friends,
For Rizky, 
Even for me.

Because even the slightest thing
could leave me ashtray,
the smallest thing could get me hurt.

I am as light as a feather,
And as fragile, too.

Loving me is never easy,
Even for me.

So I'm sorry for being stubborn.

The way I talk,
The way I walk,
The way I be.

Because I only have myself for so long,
I've cried alone for far too long,

I've relied on me
for forever.

So loving me is never easy,
Even for me.


Ananda Khaira Azizah,
Rokan Hulu, June 23rd 2021.
12pm.

 

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