Learn to Let Go

Let go; letting go :

“An act of letting go; to free yourselves from self-destructive things. Be it a thought, a person, a feeling and anything of the sorts. To make peace with yourself.”

Letting go of someone or something truly is not an easy task, so easy to say yet extremely difficult to do. I just had a very tough day as me and my friend shouldered something we shouldn’t have. We got caught up in the middle of something so bad, which may affect our future (in a bad way, of course). A “bad luck”, so to say. We’re just some unlucky dude who got involved in some unlucky event, basically just being in the wrong place, at the wrong time. Same old story. And so I got home, bursting my anger to an (also) unlucky friend of mine and sure enough, I ended up regretting what I did later.

As my head start to think more clearly, I can see fear as the main culprit of my raging anger. Fear of my lack of knowledge that will eventually lead to my teacher’s disappointment. Fear of being known as incapable of doing something that I must be able to. Fear of being judged by my peers, etc etc. I realize that beside my fear, my ego is also kicking in. The ego that we are not at fault, we are the victim of their action, we are this, we are that, anything that will make us the righteous one. The ego of my long-awaiting minor rotation that wasn’t supposed to be like this. The rotation that supposed to be happy, full of free time, me having enough time to do what I always dreamt of doing, and so on, and so on. Yet life threw lemons exactly at my face and hit me hard.

Haemin Sunim always say in his books “When you’re angry, step back. A burst of anger usually did not end up well, there’s a very high chance for you to regret what you do or said at that moment. Observe your emotion calmly, separate yourself from your emotion and just breath. Take a deep breath. And after that, the anger will slowly recede, you’ll finally be able to see what lays beneath the anger. It could be fear, shame, confusion or any other emotions.”

We might really have to think about that. Really think about it. Learn how to let go of everything. Let go of our pride, ego, anger, and even sadness. Learn how to live with ease.

P.S : I'm a medical student who currently doing my hospital rotation. Minor rotations are the ones other than surgery, obstetry and ginecology, pediatric and internal medicine.