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The Shoulders

She carry us all so strong on both of her shoulders. Those broad and steady ones are very distinct from her other small stature but she carry them with such grace & gratefulness.   She carries all the loads, the should’ve and must haves; everything and everyone that crosses her paths. All will be taken a very good care of & by the end of the day, she’s just grateful that she manages to be a good listener, a wonderful spouse & one loving mother. “But then who carries her when time gets tough?” you asked. Well, that’s the amazing thing about her family. They carry her back. Gestures that is albeit small, but very meaningful. The instantly answered call whenever she needed (whenever he can), a come-back home even for 1 to 2 hours only, a hug that lingers a little longer & the reassuring smiles with those hearty and teasy laughs. And one little hand who reaches out to her over and over again with endless hugs & kisses, often times accompanied by a gentle stroke on h...
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A Copenhagen Love Story

Ten minutes have passed and I.am.still processing this movie. So it started out as me just trying to find some feel good, smiley romance movie to fill my afternoon up and this movie is the total opposite of that. It’s a mix of every feelings merged into one (even disbelief) and thankfully, the aftertaste is still, a very good one. The first feeling that I catch on the first part of the movie is love, yet it turned into confusion, bravery, strength & determination on the middle part but on the last part, the movie really is about love but that deep, profound love that leaves you so speechless and so glad that the actress herself is able to experience such love. They talk about fertility treatment on the middle part of the movie that, to some people, is so real & very relatable because they literally went through what she went through. The hope & the despair, the stress, the tears & fears, those countless tests and all those injections before & even after the pregnanc...

Motherhood

Motherhood in its truest form is a collective of quiet moments between both you and your child. On the shared smile & those profound laughter, on the immense joy and those deep heartbreak. When you’re in love not only with the quiet  moments but also with the loud ones,  When you thrive in heavy moments and still grow on the light ones. When every sparkle, every joy, every love and every growth worth more than gold or every diamond there is,  Now you truly know that motherhood is really, really worth fighting for and truly worth waiting for. So let us celebrate every child that’s born and every mother who’s also born with them. May we find our strength and our joys within this collective journey. Cheers! Ananda Khaira Azizah,  Pekanbaru, 7 Agustus 2025. Hari Kamis, pukul 2 malam.

Year 2 of baby’s life

Oh it is year 2 of baby’s life. It certainly has been filled with so many butterflies. Even though there’s still so many cries, oh it is ever  an achievement that no one can denies! Happiest birthday, my dear boy. May you walk this earth with a humble  heart & an open mind. May you be true to yourselves and speak truth to your world. May you be brave & be strong for whatever  lies ahead and may you be kind and be generous on life; and on yourself. May you take care of you as well as you take care of others. Oh my humble, brave; my kind little one. You’re forever my favorite person, you’re forever in my heart. With love, mama. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 3 Agustus 2025. Hari Minggu, pukul 1 siang.

Forever Safe

You’re forever safe in our arms, darling. No  matter how bleak the day we’ve had Or how difficult our day’s been going through. When you cry, let us cry with you, When you laugh, let us laugh with you, When you’re happy let us be happy for you, And when you’re sad let us come to you. Because presence and emotions are essential for growth, baby. Both for your growth, and ours. So let us try to talk our way out, pour our hearts out and just, simply being there for each other, alright? We love you just as much as we love ourselves (if it’s not even bigger) You truly are the best part of us & forever the very best part of me. Pa & Ma loves you, baby. Xoxo. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 1 Agustus 2025. Hari Jumat, pukul 6 pagi.

Heart Will Tell

We were once 25 and 25. Young, wild, but never free. We were attracted so much with each other and being sure so well that we’re engaged on our first month of meeting one another;  married exactly six months later. And the rest is history. We travel, we eat, we laugh, we love. It was a straight out of an eat, pray, love movie-kind of relationship. But we also fight. We fight & flight, we learn hard to swallow our pride, we listen to each other’s bicker and snide, but we always  got our spouses back and side. Because they are our one, true love after all.  Marriage is a long shot on the long run but  it will be a joyful long-ness if you’re  in it with the right person. And the heart will tell. Your heart will tell you who, when & how this person will turn up.  And it will always; most definitely &  most certainly worth the wait 😊 Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 19 Juli 2025. Hari Sabtu, pukul 6 pagi.

The House

The house is the perfect copy of our old house. That’s why it’s very precious to me. Its front, the layout, the stairs, the room arrangements, down to the balcony. The place where both of my grandparents were still healthy. I’ve been missing him since yesterday, you know. And it didn’t dissipate until today, it gets worse. I hope he’s okay there. By this time I know that once someone is gone, you really never see them anymore. Not even in your dream. And I started to lose any ideas of how to see him, when his old photos begin to blur just as much as the memory. We miss you, Angku. We miss you so much and we don’t know how to deal with it.  I hope life after life treats you good. The only thing that we can give to you now is our prayer and our never ending love.  Please, can you just visit me in my dream from time to time? I’m just missing you a lot and it might’ve lessen the pain a little bit. We love you, Angku. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 11 Juli 2025. Hari Jumat, pukul...